Happy June to you! I know it’s been a minute since I’ve posted anything on this blog. I’ve been going through a lot of things and have not really been myself as of late. Or you can say that, I’ve have not seen this part of myself before. Painting this year is always a priority and so far I’ve churned out over 60 works of art as we almost end the 2nd quarter. For the past two series, consisting of April and May, I’ve been very sad, very emotional. I don’t consider to be a sad person mostly a pleasant personality. However, over the course of these two months, there are days when I do not feel like doing anything, just going through the motions. You can say my faith in God have been really tested, when I just don’t feel like doing anything anymore. Including painting.
Oh no! You say. Yes, it has felt that way and I’ve never felt so alone. I’ve spoken to God about this and I sometimes wish I didn’t have feelings. This feeling of sadness was like a cloak that I could not remove, despite placing a smile on my face. The smile felt fake. It didn’t feel it belonged there. However, I know with these newfound emotions, I was able to pour my heart into works of art. If I have trouble expressing something, I would have to paint or draw it.
Above is the first of the P.E.A.R.L.S series. This depicts pure emotion. I was in the darkness and could not see much except keeping my faith in God. But it was hard. There were tears that tried to escape from my eyes and unto the painting, but I quickly wiped them away.
I understand that art usually has an emotional tie to it throughout history or whether a sense of passion. My emotions felt they were out of my grasp for the first time and feeling this way, just made me know I was human.
Otherwise, I will be talking more about my art in my upcoming live painting event on July 1, 2017. It is hoped that you come and appreciate the story behind the art as well as the art itself. Love you passionately.
For the love of God and art!
Thru His Vessel JB